I've already attended two social gatherings where the food looked delicious, but was off plan. I took some chicken stock with shredded chicken, onion and carrots with me as well as some cooked vegetables. I did really well and recognized that the energy that I would have put into the food was redirected to the people who were present.
Last night when the kids had gone to bed I experienced my first huge craving for something "special". A small glass of wine, a piece of dark chocolate. I realized that I had become very dependent on small treats throughout the day when moments of craziness or solitude brought up feelings I need to work through. I was able to sit down by myself and work through some of those. A hurt from a few years ago that I'm having trouble letting go, a sense of loss as my son reaches manhood, fear about our future as we search for a farm. While I'm fairly good at thinking things through I often avoid the hard work of really spending time in prayer over things, asking for forgiveness and most important forgiving myself. I'm looking forward to making more time for letting go.
Nourishing Farm Meals {GAPS Diet-Stage One}